I’m super girl, and i just miss being me..

I got frustrated with myself..yeah..damn hell me then..
everything goes wrong with me lately, like tonight…

1. I left my friend’s apartment and left my wallet there, and realized when i was about entering the MRT station, meant: i needed my card to enter, which’s of course i couldn’t find it since it’s in my wallet, so i needed to buy coin but of course i couldn’t since all my money are in wallet
Frustrated i called him to go back to the place we left each other to give me some money, and of course he cursed me for he had to give all money in his pocket to me while he was having dinner appointment with friend, meant, he would have to ask the friend to pay the meal
2. No idea what in my mind was, i took the wrong train and didn’t realize until i arrived in the wrong station, while i was having dinner appointment with Leo which was waiting for me in cursing of my stupidity too
3. i lost my train’s coin in i don’t know somewhere, and of course i couldn’t get out the station and i bought new coin for it..damn hell

And now..i’m staring my laptop, updating my CV, but again got frustrated because i totally forgot my Linked in password, i even forgot my tweeter, also my gmail password..and ohh yea i also realized i even forgot my Indonesian cellphone’s number..my IM3 number..i forgot it..can you believe it?? gosh….
what d hell with me?

One says i’m in love (ohhh…i wish)
the other one says i’m in deep stress (ohh..damn hell)
if two closest men of mine give such different opinion, well..such totally opposite opinions, and me, the subject, doesn’t even understand what’s wrong with me..what should i do then..of course i say “none of you are right”..and of course each of them insists they are right, for they think the know me best

i got dizzy..i can’t sleep..and i can’t poo..i’m dizzy..
what i’m doing? i listen to this song out loud “yes..i’m strong, i’m super girl and i just miss being me”
the songs maybe not exactly the same i feel, but i do miss being me

It’s not suppose to feel
It’s not suppose to be like this
I’m not what I used to be
I feel that I can’t breathe
I feel that I can’t be my self
Strong when I’m alone

I’d try to get you out of my mind
& manytimes I try to step on the ground
but shape of you, taste of you, smell of you
Spinning in my head..
Goin crazy just because of you!!

Take me out of here!!!!, take me out of here!!!!
I’m not my self, not I used to be
Yes I am Strong, I wanna be a supergirl
Well,.. I just miss being me..

So long, I’ve blame my self dreamin’ ’bout you..
I don’t want to stop, cause I hate to be alone
Just tell me where you are

I’m looking for you at manyplace
Never bored asking people ’bout where you are
Hey!! Don’t you dare treat me me like you don’t know me
Now you’re out of my world, don’t know where to find you

Take me out of here!!!!, take me out of here!!!!
I’m not my self, not I used to be
Yes I am Strong, I must be a supergirl
Well,.. I just miss being..

OOO ooo that strong little girl, noo..
Don’t wanna be alone

You control me, you control me ooooo.
You control me, you control me.

The way you are, makes me don’t wanna go, won’t be alone anymore