Some people are good in covering emotion, and I guess, sometimes I am, I know, people think i’m just kinda outgoing people who is easily getting a long with something, and my emotion fluctuation, some people say, is just something easy to see from my expression and what i do and sing 
, that’s true..but the truth is, I’m not always that simple, there are many times, i can laugh while hiding things, or look okay and happy when I am not..But i tell you, there is one thing that i can never fake; treating people..i just can’t fake my attitude to people, i can’t pretend being nice to people if i know i just don’t like them
And (un)fortunately i never try to pretend about any any thing who i am not, i can’t be nice when i don’t like, all the best or maybe worst thing i can do is ignoring..yes, one more thing i realize recently, how i develop my ignorance level to something that even surprises myself. For me, when things are still worth to fight, no matter how it cost and how it hurts i will just fight for it, communicate, explain, and get apology once i am wrong..but, if i know my level of tolerance reach to the limit, i even stop my anger, and put those things into really nothing, and i just act it as really..really nothing, totally ignore
But look..listen, i don’t do it for no reason, i’m not kind of person who change the mood without any reason, there must be a reason, and when i don’t spell it out is just i don’t want to make something become awkward or i just feel that it’s just not worthy enough to receive my explanation..
What can I say…being me is this, i never pretend to be everybody’s favorite, everybody can hate me for any reason that they have, but, i tell you that the reason is never because i am stupid, because i know, i am not..i’m difficult person, i never demand for something perfect, but anyhow, i hate someone stupid..I know my movement, my ignorance, many times hurt people, but trust me..me, myself is sensitive person, so i know when I do wrong. Once i do wrong, i will really come for an apology, but once i know i am not wrong, i will just stay still and ‘enjoy’ how things run around..I just can’t fake myself, and sometimes, when thing is scratched, it may be healed, but somehow the mark is just there still…
mmmm.. I am stubborn.. yes i am
